I am grieving today for a woman I never met. A friend I never saw. We linked each others' blogs and encouraged each other. I sensed her inner beauty and saw her amazing talents on my computer screen. She had a keen eye for the quirky and an ability to mix beauty and humor. Sometimes I'd click on her name just to see the title photo at the top of her blog which I thought was the coolest photo ever. But she is gone now.
While browsing through my favorite blogs yesterday I read about her but didn't even know her real name - just Liquid Illuzion. (click to see yourself) At Writing in Faith I discovered that on Christmas Eve a blogger shot herself. Sandy wrote an eloquent post about suicide. I clicked on the link and it was Liquid Illuzion. I clicked off - there must be a mistake - I clicked on it again. She had posted a humorous photo on Christmas Eve and then shot herself? Then I found other bloggers who had dedicated their posts to Suzanne Horne since last week. I cried. I wondered why. I didn't even know her, but this blogging phenomenon makes us friends. I know more about some of you out there than some of the people I see every day. You know more about me than many people who see me everyday too, I'm sure. But if we are to take the joy of our blogging community then we must endure the sorrow also.
Good-bye Liquid Illuzion - good-bye Suzanne. I can truly say I will miss you and the beauty you brought to the world. I wish you would have seen the beauty yourself.
8 comments:
Oh Diane, I am so sorry to hear about your blogging friend. I will check out her blog.
You are right though, the daily connections through blogs makes us friends and at times we can feel closer than we do to our real life friends.
Your post is very touching.
Diane..The sorrow is compounded by the "why" of it all. I wonder if Suzanne shared her demons with anyone? My prayers are with her soul, those she touched and everyone she left behind.
Keep the positive energy and creative talent that Suzanne let her blogging friends know go forward and remain vibrantly alive.
the other part i don't subscribe
I'm sorry, Diane. Peace, girl.
Thinking of you. And your friend....
I'm so, so sorry, Diane.
Diane, I did not comment when I read this earlier today, but I will now.
What a sad story and I feel so saddened by loss of this kind. How she must have felt... who can know?
What also struck me as I read her blog was that she was linked to other bloggers that I am linked to, but of a different circle of bloggers than the one that connected you and I.
It is intriguing to me how we all come into contact with one another.
And I did have to tell my one blog friend about this - she did not know although she knew that life was not so easy for Suzanne.
Peace to all.
I just checked Suzanne's blog and it didn't seem like anything was amiss, but there's no question when the method was gunfire. That is not a typical way for a woman to commit suicide. So, so sad.
I'm in a sort of daze right now, still trying to wrap my head around this news... Deeply saddening news. I've been into blogging for five years now; my first time to encounter something like this, so close to the network of acquaintances/friends I associate with. (shakes head) I understand the wave of emotion, Diane. (hug)
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