Friday, March 4, 2011

A Grief Observed

No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing.

At other times it feels like being mildly drunk, or concussed. There is a sort of invisible blanket between the world and me. I find it hard to take in what anyone says. Or perhaps, hard to want to take it in. It is so uninteresting. Yet, I want the others to be about me. I dread the moments when the house is empty. If only they would talk to one another and not to me.

From A Grief Observed by C.S. Lewis


Carol said...

Yes, it's disorienting.

Carol said...

Yes, it's disorienting.

Miss Sadie said...

Indeed, Diane.

Kathiesbirds said...

I have read this book. So appropriate at this time. Lewis said it well.